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Paganicon 2013

I had the good fortune to be one of the guests of honor at Paganicon 2013. From the pre-con staff lunch to the after-midnight post-con room party, the Twin Cities Pagan Pride staff went out of their way to make sure I had what I needed and that I had a good time. Wendy sailed through the event serenely solving problems before they became visible. Cei did a phenomenal job of shoehorning the odd scheduling bits together so that the tracks made perfect sense. Elysia always seemed to be on hand to make something happen. Doc had a smile for me whenever he ran into me. There were so many more I can’t call them all out, but they were all working hard and smiling all the while.

It’s a great size for a con, something like 300 people, small enough to meet the people you want to meet, big enough to fill a ballroom and have a great party. Four workshop tracks offered choice that wasn’t overwhelming. Just like the staff, participants were uniformly sweet. I kept saying, “Either you really are as nice as you seem, or you wait to talk about us until we’re out of earshot,” and the answer was always, “That’s Minnesota!”

Jane and Thracie of Eye of Horus supported the event behind the scenes by bringing books written by presenters and running the till for the art show. Oh, and the art show! It was the first for the con. Paul selected pieces in many styles and media and they were displayed well.

I had the opportunity to talk about two of my favorite subjects, women in magic (“The Woman Magician”) and relating to the gods (“Pagan Theurgy”). I was also able to construct a shrine to Seshat and offer people a chance to connect with the Lady of the Library. What better goddess for a writer?

I was able to catch two workshops by Kiya Nicoll, author of the marvelous romp Travelers Guide to the Duat. I hope to see more work from her in the future. I was lucky enough to sign books next to Frater Barrabbas and learn more about his work. Oh – and the headliner guest of honor, Orion Foxwood, was fascinating, engaging, and deeply sincere. These are all folk I hope to see at the Esoteric Book Conference one of these years!

The Twin Cities turned out to have many attractions in addition to the con. Ted and I slipped out on Saturday to catch Mass at Leaping Laughter Lodge, where our sisters and brothers in the order also made us welcome, and we had the chance to see a lovely Mass. On Sunday we caught a play at the Guthrie Theater, a sophisticated and elegant venue hosting amazing quantities of high quality theater. On Monday Elysia took us by Minnehaha Falls, which I think was Ted’s favorite moment!

Every convention has its particular character. Esoteric Book Conference features book sellers and book creators, people who love not just tex but the talismanic physicality of the form, along with a single track of programming featuring speakers from around the country and around the world. For sheer enjoyability in a fully developed Pagan community, Paganicon must surely be developing a sterling reputation.

Ted at Minnehaha Falls

Ted at Minnehaha Falls

The Woman Magician – Women in Stage Magic

Why is the popular image of a magician male, while the woman at his side is his assistant? This 2010 article summarizes American gender role stereotyping quickly – men are “instrumental”, women are “expressive”, an interesting variant on the intellectual/emotional and spiritual/material theme. Women are more likely to be seen as witches. Magicians use wands, women read palms.

Then, amazingly, the writer asked women magicians why they thought that only about five percent of stage magic performers are women. The results are not surprising: advertisements are written for men, women don’t have female role models, historical women magicians get dropped from the record. This one was a bit of a surprise:

“Women have to invent for themselves ways to do things that men do not. Most magic instruction is designed for men with jackets. Women’s clothes don’t have pockets and women can’t reach into their breast pockets.”

When I wrote about not fitting into men’s magical clothes I meant it figuratively, but for stage performers it’s literal!

Reporter Peter M. Nardi concludes: “Although there are many young female magicians entering the field, and despite less overt discrimination in magic clubs and performance venues, the continued male-dominance of magic highlights the entrenched values and social roles in our society today.”

Here’s the article: Why Have Women Magicians Vanished?

Feminist Thelema

Beauty and Strength

Beauty and Strength

I wrote Feminist Thelema in public. Not literally – I didn’t sit in a store window and type – but I did let the world in on the process.

It started when one of my Ordo Templi Orientis friends asked me people thought of Thelema as not feminist. When you are immersed in a worldview it’s difficult to see how it seems to people outside the worldview. As a long-time feminist and a practitioner of more than one kind of magic I have perspective and a basis for analysis. I wrote up some observations and then presented them to Vortex Oasis. After the presentation we talked about the ideas.

It turned out that a lot of people were interested in that discussion. I presented the ideas at Horizon Oasis, the O.T.O.’s “Women’s Symposium” in 2006, NOTOCON in 2007. Glenn Turner saw that presentation and asked me to present at Pantheacon, which I did in 2008. In all I gave the presentation four times to O.T.O. audiences and once to a Pagan audience. Each time I ended the presentation by breaking the lecturer-speaker wall, coming out from behind the podium, sitting in a circle with the other people in the room, and asking what they thought. This was a great way to hone and refine a set of ideas. They had a lot of input by the time they reached publication, in the published proceedings of NOTOCON 20007 titled Beauty and Strength.

It was also a great way to avoid the troll phenomenon. I found that when I posted about the ideas online that they attracted fervent detractors, some of whom became somewhat personal in their disagreement. What I experienced wasn’t as virulent as women in other fields have faced, and I had a lot of support from my sisters and brothers in the Order. Ultimately though I stopped posting online. Fighting the opposition became the point, and I wanted to redirect my efforts to the work itself.

The years I spent reading and writing the paper formed the basis for the book The Woman Magician. I brought the social aspect into that next project as well. Writing, reading, taking in feedback, and writing again situated “Feminist Thelema” squarely in community as an aspect of community. It’s one of the pieces I am most proud to have written.

Woman Magician

Hood Canal

Hood Canal

Writing The Woman Magician wasn’t just a project for me, it was a lifestyle. IIt was ten years from the typing the first pages to holding the printed book in my hands, and I travelled a lot of miles along the way.

Travelled? Yes, I wrote the book on the get-away-and-focus plan. Some works can be done in little pieces, like quilt squares, and then stitched together. The book was more like a grand knitting project, it had to be done all at once. I needed big chunks of time to think a complex thought through to its conclusion.

To accomplish this I spent at least one weekend a month away from home on a series of writing retreats. I’d scour the web for a place to stay within a short driving radius. It had to be quiet, preferably a cabin, with places where I could walk. I stayed at Lake Cushman, Silver Lake, Lake Oswego. I spent one long weekend on Guemes Island and several others on Hood Canal. For a number of years I spent Christmas break at Long Beach in Washington state. It’s a four hour drive from my house to the Long Beach peninsula along highways, then state roads, then local roads. In the winter the alder trunks stand bare against green cedar, red twig dogwood and tan grasses line the roads, the water reflects the gray mist in the sky. I’d pop a CD of troubador music in the player and roll along the road. Some years were wilder than others, sometimes trees blocked the roads, sometimes there was snow.

Whidbey Island Writers Refuge

Whidbey Island Writers Refuge


Once installed in the cabin I had a regular routine. I woke up and wrote. I’d eat lunch and then take a walk, along the beach, in a neighboring park, down the road where I was staying. Back at the cabin I would write what I had been thinking on the walk. I’d take a nap. Then dinner, in the cabin or out at a neighborhood joint, and more writing. I’d call or Skype Ted and catch up on what we’d been doing. Then I’d write until I was too tired to sit up. Sleep, repeat.

I wasn’t always working on the book during writing retreats. I worked on “Feminist Thelema” or Women’s Voices in Magic too. I’d always come back to the main work though. After eight or so years of this I had a pretty substantial collection of draft text.

Finally I got serious about finishing the project. I booked two week-long stays at the Whidbey Island Writers Refuge. This is a cozy cabin tucked away in the woods that was purpose-built for writing retreats. I spent one summer week there drafting half the book and a winter week drafting the second half. The seasons and the cabin made their way into the book.

I threw a book release party at the Esoteric Book Conference in 2011. The week after the conference my entire family took a month-long trip around the country by train. It was a celebration of accomplishment and a total immersion into a luxuriously long trip.

Long Beach in winter

Long Beach in winter

Since we came back from that trip I haven’t done monthly writing retreats. There are a lot of reasons. I am committed to conservation of resources and try to drive as little as possible. As I get older travel is not quite as easy as it used to be for me and I find that I miss my own sheets and my kitchen gear. Also, when we came back from our month on the train we all got new pets, and now I have three beautiful kitties; they are always around me, sleeping nearby or on me, nuzzling me and purring. When I have to stay away from home I miss them terribly. It may be that my writing vagabond days are over.

I loved the writing retreat period of my life. I saw a lot of the northwest that way. The places wound themselves into the text. When I read the words I can see the waves on the winter beach, the birds circling over the water, long stretches of highway through trees. The north woods by the sea offer quiet immersion in secluded places. I don’t think I could have written a book of that scope anywhere else.